Bonus Chapter : Cosmic Radio - When the Universe Sang Our Story

Cosmic Radio - When The Universe Sang Our Story – A Divine Reference.

Some stories aren’t just written in ink—they’re carved into time by things we don’t fully understand. A number. A lyric. A beat. A memory. Some nights, when you’re standing at the edge of doubt, the universe doesn’t shout. It sings.

I remember that evening as if it were stitched into the fabric of my life. I was questioning everything, PRAY, the blog, the voice I had dared to share with the world. What would people say? Would they laugh? Would they scroll past? Was I just bleeding words into a world that didn’t care?

It was around 11:00 PM. I was listening to a shuffled playlist while working on the 2nd chapter, lost in the shadows of second-guessing, when Alexa glitched—or aligned. Suddenly, every song that followed wasn’t random. It was ordained. The soundtrack of a soul being reminded of its reason.

The first beat hit: “Not Afraid” – Eminem. And instantly, I wasn’t in that room anymore. I was a 13-year-old kid again. Back in my small room, sketching, playing games, making random crafts, just invested in myself, trying to make sense of a world that always felt too loud for a kid like me. 

I could still see that old Nokia 5300 Express Music, my elder brother gave me when I passed 9th grade. Later came the Nokia X3—both sliding phones, both time machines. They weren’t just phones. They were portals. Filled with songs I didn’t fully understand then, but somehow lived by.

That X3 had the first ever stereo speakers, and that was the first time I felt music, not just listened to it. Eminem’s voice? It was armor. It was therapy before I knew what therapy was. Rage and resilience, shaped into rhythm. And in that moment, years later, it was like God pressed play on my memory.

I remember filling those phones with songs I didn’t fully understand at the time. Songs that said everything I couldn’t. That little red-and-black device wasn’t just playing music; it was translating emotion. And at the heart of it all was Eminem (It came in the Phone as my brother used to listen), and now I want to thank my brother for introducing Eminem to me. 

His voice wasn’t just sound. It was armor. Grit wrapped in melody. Rage shaped into rhythm. I didn’t know what therapy was back then, but I knew what it felt like when “Not Afraid” came on and I felt less alone. And strangely… that same feeling returned, all these years later.

Because that’s exactly what I’m doing now—Through PRAY.

Through every word, every sign, every silence, I’ve turned into sentences. I’m making sound. I’m sharing my voice. And for the first time in days, I smiled. “I’m not afraid to take a stand…” Wasn’t that what PRAY was from the very beginning? Not just a blog. Not just a story. But a voice through the static— Sliding open again, like that old phone…Letting the music in.

Every track that followed that night felt like a prophecy:

• “Till I Collapse” wasn’t a song. It was a declaration.
• “Last One Standing”, “Fast Lane”, “Forever” (ft. Drake), and “Venom”—every one of them thundered like echoes of the man I’m becoming.
• Even “Lighters” with Bruno Mars felt like an anthem for those who’ve walked through hell but never let the fire dim their glow.
• Then came “I Need a Doctor”. I didn’t even know I was bleeding until that track bandaged my silence.
• “Mirrors” by Lil Wayne and Bruno? It wasn’t just a song—it was a confession.

And “The Search” by NF? It felt like someone took a microphone into the room where my doubts were hiding and hit record. But it wasn’t over. The final song—“God’s Plan”—played. Not by shuffle. By divine design. 

That’s when I knew. This wasn’t a glitch. This was grace. It felt like a shoulder tap from the Universe: “You still don’t see it, do you?” This wasn’t just a playlist anymore. A reminder that everything, every loss, every delay, every ache, every angel number, wasn't random. It was designed.

1111 – Alignment. You’re on the right path; keep going.

1212 – Synchronicity. Stay positive and trust the divine process.

1234 – Step by step, you’re moving toward something divine. Even if it hurts.

222 – Balance. Partnership. A symbol of us. I saw it when I prayed for her peace.

333 – The Ascended Masters are near. Protecting. Assuring.

444 – Stability in chaos. Foundation beneath heartbreak. My ancestors, holding me.

555 – Change. Wild, uncontrollable, irreversible change.

666 – Not a curse. A call for balance between material and spiritual. I saw this when I was too deep in pain.

777 – Divine intervention. Luck. Truth. This was the number of my realizations.

888 – Abundance. Karma. I saw this during moments of unexpected comfort.

999 – Closure. The end of a cycle. The universe saying: It’s time to let go.

  23/01 – My birthday. The day she made me feel like magic.
  21/10 – Our anniversary date.

The Soundtrack of a Soul Connection. There were songs we shared. Songs I found after we fell apart. And songs that randomly played…as if the universe still wanted me to hear her, even when she wasn’t speaking to me. Each one, a thread. Together, they wove the pattern of us. 

Here’s what they meant :

🎧 The Weeknd - Reminder The universe's way of saying: you’re the one made for her. Even when you forget who you are, this song comes on like armor.

🎧 Kyun - Talha Anjum feat. Annural Khalid | Prod. Umair I listened to this artist. But this song? It found me. Like a reflection of our “why.” Why we met. Why it broke. Why it still lingers.

🎧 AFSANAY - Young Stunners | Talhah Yunus | Talha Anjum | Prod. By Jokhay Raw. Honest. Melancholic. Like a poem I didn’t write—but felt every word of.

🎧 Waalian : Harnoor (Full Song) Gifty | The Kidd I had a soft spot for it. I started hearing it everywhere after we stopped talking. Maybe the universe was missing her, too.

🎧 Finding Her (Jana Mere Sawalon Ka Manzar Tu) : Kushagra | Vanshika Kashyap | Bharath I dedicated this to her. Because I thought I’d found her. And in a way, I did. Even if she wasn’t mine to keep.

🎧 Ishq I Amir Ameer | Faheem Abdullah | Rauhan Malik She used to listen to this. Now I can’t. Because now it plays like a memory I can’t switch off.

🎧 Sahiba | Jasleen Royal|Stebin| Priya|Aditya| Sudhanshu "Sahiba isn’t a track, it’s a memory disguised as melody."

🎧 DIL NU - AP DHILLON | SHINDA KAHLON Another one from her playlist. Love in motion. A vibe I didn’t choose—but still carries echoes of her laughter.

🎧 With You - AP Dhillon We heard this together. In silence. In peace. In love. And now, in longing.

🎧  LOVER - Diljit Dosanjh Punjabi poetry of pain and passion. Every beat felt like a heartbeat. And every line felt like a confession I never got to say aloud.

🎧 What Goes Around...Comes Around | Justin Timberlake Random shuffle. But maybe not so random. Sometimes, karma sings before it acts.

🎧 Tere Hawaale | Arijit,Shilpa | Pritam,Amitabh,Advait It played when I was thinking of her. Coincidence? Or divine cruelty? Because the lyrics felt like everything I wanted to say, but never could.

🎧 Better Days - Maanu A quiet anthem for the days I chose healing over holding on.

🎧 Ed Sheeran - Perfect Her favorite.  That’s how strong memories are. They don’t ask permission to play.

The Random Emotions, the Cosmic Pull. Sometimes I feel emotional without a reason. I’d be watching an action-packed movie like Avengers, Fast & Furious, or playing a high-speed car game. And out of nowhere, my eyes start to well up. Not sadness. Not heartbreak. Just… a sudden surge. A feeling that doesn’t even feel like mine. It’s like I’m carrying something that belongs to someone else. Or maybe… it belongs to the universe.

I’ll be at a family gathering or in Public, at a bar, or scrolling through social media. And suddenly, one of those songs plays. From someone else’s phone. From a random reel. From a DJ set. And it hits. Again. Not because I’m thinking about her. But because the universe keeps reminding me of her.

Keeps placing her energy in my path. Keeps pulling me back to this connection I thought I had outgrown. Now, when I think of us, I understand something deeper. Maybe I didn’t fully change when I should have.  And maybe that’s why these signs don’t let me rest. Why do these echoes still chase me?

In dreams. In reels. On a stranger’s wrist. On a page I flipped open randomly. I stopped calling it a coincidence. Because maybe some stories don’t end. They just evolve. 

PRAY wasn’t born from inspiration. It was born from alignment. From memories sealed in stereo speakers. From a brother’s gift. From a boy who never stopped listening. It was my way of saying: Even when the world gets loud, my story will sing.

"Because some people write books. But some books rewrite you"

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Special Mention: 

Karan Aujla – The Voice of My Unspoken Feelings !

There’s one artist whose music has felt like therapy, it’s Karan Aujla. His songs didn’t just play in the background; they showed up at exactly the right moments. Every lyric. Every beat. Every drop of pain, pride, or reflection,

It felt like he reached into my soul and said the things I never knew how to express. This isn’t just fandom. It’s resonance. It’s as if someone out there has lived your emotions and then turned them into sound. Sometimes, I didn’t even go looking for his songs; they just found me. And when they did, they made everything feel understood. That’s not music. That’s the connection. 

🎤  Winning Speech – My Promise

Fan iko naar da main 10 vari var da mein, Ohden utton 100 100 diyan gaddiya

Time laggu mitne nu sanu thale sitne nu, 21 vaari jor la le chhatiyan

🎤 52 Bars – My Motto. My Way.

Kade socheya ni kinna utte chakke badshah, Khush rehne aa ni jithe saanu rakhe badshah

Esse kakre ni kade kitte jhooth boleya, Kyunki utte baitha dekhda ae sache badshah

🎤 Admirin' You  – What I Wanted Once

Kade milke baitho, Gall kariye pyaar di , Aaj kaali kaali raat maardi, Dekho taareyan di loh

🎤 48 Rhymes – Bars that felt like battle scars.

Jitt jaavan baazi par kara na play kude, Tadke pray kude, raat nu away kude

Tu vi javan lagdi ae, yaar nu slay kude, Mardeya bade par sathon ni khare kude

🎤 Antidote – Mitra de pyaar di dawa

Mai keha mittran de match da ni koi, Thalle mere lv te utte lainde louis

Marjaniye ni, pher na kahi tu maadi hoi, Mittran de pyaar di dawa ae ni pyaar di dawa ae

🎤 COURTSIDE – Recent Favorite - A vibe.

Ni firde aa bukkde ni yaari ch ni lukda, Fan teri look da, oda ni cheti jhukda ni

Assi kade aapde lai nahi kujh mangea, Kude teri sukh lai makhane fira sukh da

🎤At Peace - Another Banger 

Firr dharh kaahdi rhe thalle ho gi muchh je ni, Sadda rabb raaji rhe, baaki dunia russ je ni

Sadda rab raaji rhe,

Tracks I Turned To When I Couldn’t show her my EGO/Anger – Couldn’t give her the taste of her own medicine.

·         Take It Easy

·         SIFAR SAFAR

·         Champions Anthem

·         Try Me

·        Who They

·    Goin Off

·    Game Over

·    On Top & On Top 2

·   Y.D.G

·   Oouuu

·   They Know 

🎤 Unreachable – My Altered Ego Soundtrack - For the days I felt like no one could calm me. Like I had bled too much. This is the energy I tap into when I used to get jealous.

Karan Aujla, Whenever you see this— Thank you. For the lyrics that felt like letters I never sent. For the lyrics that sounded like mine. For being the voice when I had no one.

This isn’t just admiration. It’s gratitude. Your music was my shadow through every storm, and I’ll make sure to meet you Face to Face, “IDK HOW” but I will – See your songs fit so perfectly!! Also, don’t sue me for copy referencing these songs 😊. Rab Raakha !!

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"Until life sharpens the pen in my hand… I vanish"

Not to escape, but to evolve. In the fire between chapters. Because healing doesn’t always happen in the light, sometimes it’s forged in the dark, just like the Bat. "You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain." But me? I chose to live long enough to become a writer. So when life flips the page again...I won’t just return. I’ll rewrite the ending. Because this time— "It’s not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me."